Mother and Son Prove ‘It Gets Better’

In 1995, 21-year-old Robert Rave was in New York City, hundreds of miles away from his home in suburban Illinois. He needed to talk to his mother.

Rather than call or email, he decided to write her a letter – one that would change their lives forever.

Rave told his mother he was gay.

“I still cringe when I read that letter,” he said. “I had to do it that way though. It was too emotional a topic for me to speak about. I wanted to make sure I got everything out.”

The letter became a springboard to “Conversations and Cosmopolitans: Awkward Moments, Mixed Drinks, and How a Mother and Son Finally Shared Who They Really Are,” a book written by both Rave and his mother Jane, that chronicles their journey after the letter was written.

But Rave’s letter did more than open up his world to his family. It allowed his mother to open up to him, too.

“I was a different person back then,” said Jane. “All of this has allowed me to feel so much more confident.”

Things did get better.

“I was shocked,” Jane said. “I didn’t know. I feel guilty looking back that I didn’t. Once I read the letter, none of that mattered though. We felt so bad that he was dealing with this all by himself. I wanted to just give him a hug.”

There was no fallout between Rave and his family. In time, the family was brought closer together as Jane exposed a life that, like his, was partially a secret.

“Getting pregnant as a senior in high school and getting married young was something that I never really verbally expressed to my children,” said Jane, a mother of three. “I wasn’t ashamed of it, but it was something I had never really spoke about. It got emotional. He used to tell me he felt so bad, but I told him not to. I have his father, we’ve been married 44 years.”

From his journey in the dating scene to the litany of words used in the gay community, Robert shared just as much. Jane ended up getting a first-class education in her son’s life.

“He sent me a list of words and told me to tell him what I thought they meant,” said Jane. “I thought it was going to be easy. But I was floored. It was funny at times.”

One word that left Jane confused was “fag hag,” which according to Robert, means “A woman who uses gay men as an emotional crutch when she can’t find happiness of her own.”

“I try not to remember what some of the words mean,” said Jane. “Some of the other words got me saying to myself, ‘That’s not what it meant when I was a kid.’”

The notion that the mother and son should write a book started as a joke. Robert worked in media relations and had a background in fiction writing. Jane was a housewife with no professional writing experience.

The Raves didn’t let that stop them.

“Whenever I would come home for a visit, we’d discuss chapter ideas,” Robert said. “She would write out everything she wanted to say on a yellow legal notepad. Then she’d e-mail them to me and we’d start the editing process.”

Jane enjoyed the collaboration far more than she thought she would.

“I thought of it like a journal,” Jane said. “I had to go in a room by myself and I just wrote. Some of it was sad to write about, but it made me think about my life and how much it’s progressed over the years. I just kept at it. I wrote from my heart.”

The book is more than a memoir to the Raves. They want the world to read their story and embrace the differences in individual families.

“It was a way for us to look back on some of the experiences we’ve had,” Robert said. “This was before the ‘everything gets better’ campaign and all the new stories. Sadly, this story feels even timelier today. While this book is not that serious, we do want it to be able to open dialogue between families.”

He notes that the relationship between him and his family is stronger than ever.

There is some jealously lingering around, though.

“Dad jokes that he wants his own book,” he said. “I told Mom we’d call it, ‘What about me?’”

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Patrick Hickey Jr. is a full-time Assistant Professor of Communication & Performing Arts and Director of the Journalism program at Kingsborough Community College and is the chairman of the City University of New York Journalism Council. He is the Founder and Editor-In-Chief of ReviewFix.com. He's also a former News Editor at NBC Local Integrated Media and National Video Games Writer at Examiner.com where his work was mentioned in National Ad campaigns by Disney, Nintendo and EA Sports. Hickey was also the Editor-In-Chief of two College Newspapers before he received his BA in Journalism from Brooklyn College. Hickey's work has been published in The New York Daily News, The New York Times, Complex, The Hockey Writers, Yahoo!, Broadway World, Examiner, NYSportScene Magazine, ProHockeyNews.com, GothamBaseball.com, The Syracuse Post-Standard, Scout.com and the official sites of the Brooklyn Aces and New York Islanders. His first book, The Minds Behind the Games: Interviews With Cult And Classic Video Game Developers was released in April 2018 and is chock full of interviews with legendary developers. His second book in the series, The Minds Behind Adventures Games, was released in December 2019. His third book, The Minds Behind Sports Games, was released in September 2020. His fourth book, The Minds Behind Shooter Games, was released in March 2021. The Minds Behind Sega Genesis Games and The Minds Behind PlayStation Games were released in 2022 and The Minds Behind PlayStation 2 was published in January 2023. Hickey is also a contracted comic book writer, currently penning his original series, "Condrey," as well as "The Job," "Brooklyn Bleeds" "Dem Gulls" and "KROOM" for Legacy Comix, where he serves as founder, owner and Editor-in-Chief. Hickey Jr. is also a voice actor, having starred in the 2018 indie hit and 2019 Switch, PS4 and Xbox One release, The Padre (also serving as English language Story Editor), from Shotgun With Glitters. The sequel, The Padre: One Shell Straight to Hell was released in February 2021- Hickey also served as a Story Editor and Lead Voiceover performer. He has also done narration and trailers for several other titles including The Kaiju Offensive, Relentless Rex and Roniu’s Tale. Hickey is also the lead voiceover performer on Mega Cat Studios’ upcoming title WrestleQuest, responsible for nearly 90 characters in the game, as well as Skybound's Renfield: Bring Your Own Blood, where he voices both Dracula and Renfield, as well as several other characters. He also stars in Ziggurat Interactive’s World Championship Boxing Manager 2, where he performs the VO of nearly every male character in the game. He also worked on the Atari VCS’s BPM Boy.

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